Did I tell you that I gave up grumbling for Lent?
Yup. I know what you are thinking “Great move Greer!” That is what I think sometimes too.
As with anything of this nature, some days are better than others. Also I am learning exactly what grumbling is. I am not a grand complainer. I am optimistic by nature and so I tend to see the sunny side of most things. But I do have lots of little thoughts, little grumbles and gripes that pile up. So I am trying to replace my grumbles with gratefuls. I am trying to not just see the sunny side (because honestly sometimes there isn’t one) or put a positive spin on things, but instead I am trying to sort through the complaints and discontented moments and replace them with true gratefulness, even in the midst of not great situations.
To go along with this theme, I have been listening to one song in particular as a sort of prayer, confession, and way of bringing my repentance* to the table. I have been playing the song Lay Us Low by Christa Wells and Nicole Witt on heavy repeat.
here is a bit of the refrain/chorus
Take us down and lay us low
footnote *Why do I always hesitate to use that word? My guess is it has something to do with fire, brimstone and the manipulation by church leaders over the course of history to exert control over believers through fear and false guilt. Is it a trigger word for you or is that just me?**)
(**Does this count as grumbling?)